And the tears roll

I just can't get over the thought of going back to work....as I write this tonight I am incredibly sad and distraught. I was going through all of Bryleigh's pictures through this year trying to pick one out to be on her birthday cake and I just got so emotional. I can't bear the thought of leaving her for 9+ hours a day. She has been with me for 1 year and 9 months now if you include womb time. I have been having the BEST time with her this year and realizing I have two weeks left is breaking my heart.

I can not even begin to describe in words the love I have for my baby. It's an unbelievable love....something I guess I could only understand once I had a baby of my own. I always knew I would love my child to death but its hard to even write in words what's its like.

Anyway, please please please pray for me. I have never felt this kind of grief in all my life. It's honestly like going through a grieving time. I hate to compare it to that since she is still in my life but its been really hard to deal with and come to terms with.

I need to sleep. Maybe I will wake up feeling better. Tomorrow is Bryleigh's birthday.

Stacy